To My Self

I have been writing this since so long. Why did it take that long? It took that long because each time I started writing it I didn’t have anything to write about. EXACTLY like this time. But maybe I decided to write it and complete it this time so that I could get in to something new. But what is different this time from all its precedents is that I am feeling super free. Because I just broke through all the barriers I built since a millennia. How did I do that? I just don’t know. All what I know is that I stood in front of a mirror and looked at myself is this what you want to be like?? My answer was “HELL NO” so I decided to change I decided to clean up and throw it away each sand particle I saw on myself. Because I felt that I started to lose my identity. My identity is the thing that makes me myself. My identity is the thing that defines me. My identity is everything I have and should keep safe even from my own self. Why did I broke these barriers? Because I felt they were starting to choke me destroying all the dreams in front of me. They made me feel as if I was an extremely thirsty traveler who sees the mirage as water but every time I think I was neer the water I didn’t find anything. What did these barriers do is that they made me see my future as vague as an empty glass of water when seen from away for a thirsty person. So I decided to break these barriers and admit that I broke these barriers and nothing will never ever keep me trapped inside it again. Why did I write all of this? Just to say a single thing “never change for people be yourself and never say never”


But first like yourself.

What is Forgiveness??!!

Forgiveness is the intentional and voluntary process by which a victim undergoes a change in feelings and attitude regarding an offense, lets go of negative emotions such as vengefulness, with an increased ability to wish the offender well. Forgiveness is different from condoning (failing to see the action as wrong and in need of forgiveness), excusing (not holding the offender as responsible for the action), forgetting (removing awareness of the offense from consciousness), pardoning (granted by a representative of society, such as a judge), and reconciliation (restoration of a relationship).In certain contexts, forgiveness is a legal term for absolving or giving up all claims on account of debt, loan, obligation, or other claims.

As a psychological concept and virtue, the benefits of forgiveness have been explored in religious thought, the social sciences and medicine. Forgiveness may be considered simply in terms of the person who forgives including forgiving themselves, in terms of the person forgiven or in terms of the relationship between the forgiver and the person forgiven. In most contexts, forgiveness is granted without any expectation of restorative justice, and without any response on the part of the offender (for example, one may forgive a person who is incommunicado or dead). In practical terms, it may be necessary for the offender to offer some form of acknowledgment, an apology, or even just ask for forgiveness, in order for the wronged person to believe himself able to forgive.

Most world religions include teachings on the nature of forgiveness, and many of these teachings provide an underlying basis for many varying modern day traditions and practices of forgiveness. Some religious doctrines or philosophies place greater emphasis on the need for humans to find some sort of divine forgiveness for their own shortcomings, others place greater emphasis on the need for humans to practice forgiveness of one another, yet others make little or no distinction between human and divine forgiveness.

And after all of that  what do human know about forgiveness they know nothing. But I think forgive to be forgives that is the best way to survive in a world without forgiveness.


A weak person can never forgive……

When will the game end??

Sometimes you like a game and love playing it but never know when will it end! You may think that this game is unending so you even start liking it more and more. But what do you feel when you find that the game all at once disappears and ends from your life? You will feel that you are crazy can’t separate right from wrong thinking about the game you start to remeber the fun you used to have while playing the game you may also start remembering the bad moments you faced then you may start laughing about those moments. Let’s imagine the game thing but with human beings. You are a person who like a person then all at once you find that person just started to go away from you for no particular reason or maybe you just don’t know the reason behind that. You start becoming crazy just because you don’t know wether that person is angry or sad from you maybe you start apologizing thinking that he is sad from something even if you are sure you didn’t do anything. But you do that because you like that person and scared to lose him. So liking a person makes you lose your ego. People think that liking someone or something makes them weak but actually no it makes you indestructible because when you feel that you could be destructed you remeber the person you like a wish to never appear destructed infront of him but you accept to throw away your mind because he is everything you aim for. That person you like if he also likes you he will never put you down or even make you feel weak. So liking is not a feeling that makes a person weak instead it makes a person so strong.

العاشق المجنون 

انت الشمس التي تنير نهاري

انت القمر الذي ينير ليلي

انت الأنوار التي تنير دربي

كم اتمني ان لا اري غيرك في حياتي

انت الشخص الذي تمنيته طوال حياتي

كيف لي ان لا ابقي بجانبكي

انت لا يوجد لك مثيل و لن يوجد في هذه الحياة

قلبكي ينير من كثرة الحب الذي موجود بداخله

سأحزن الي الأبد إذا فارقتني

اخاف جداً علي حزنك

و كم اتمني ان أكون دائماً مصدر بهجتك و سعادتك

اعشق ضحكاتك المنيرة التي تهز قلبي

اعشق صوتكي الرنان الذي

يذكرني بصوت العصافير المزقزقة صباحاً

لكن بالعكس صوتك اجمل من

اقتنع بكل رأي تقولينه و أصدقه

فإذن ماذا سيفعل قلب العاشق بدون ان يجد ما يعشقه

الخيل و اليل و البيدأ تعرفني
والسيف و الرمح و القرطاس و القلم

اسأليهم عني سيقولو لكي أني امرؤ عاشق لكل جميل في الحياة

اعشق سماء الليل اتي تسطع فيها النجوم

لكني احزن عندما لا اري تلك النجوم

لكني عندما انظر في عينيك اري تلك نجوم تسطع

حتي اكثر من نجوم السماء

اعشق نور الشمس الذي ينير الصباح

لكنه قد يختفي في يوم ملبد بالغيوم

لكن نور وجهك أقوي بكثير من نور الشمس

اعشق المطر و ما يأتي بعده من خير

لكني اخاف ان أحزنك فيتحول المطر الي وابل يدمر كل شيء

ارحمي قلبي العاشق الذي ضعف و كاد ان يموت من ضياع العشق

The Journey of the Dead

Sometimes a person may start losing the ability to feel what is happening around him or start to not care about it anymore. What makes a person become like that? I guess he kills his heart because he finds out that everyone around him has a semi killed heart that is they never show their sadness or sorrow for him instead they show him that they are happy even when he istotally sad from the inside. So he decides to treat people the same way they treat him with. You may find him when a person who is close to him dies he is just laughing and showing any sadness, or you can just see him laughing without any reason people start seeing him a crazy person and that is somehow true. Why is that true? It is true because his senses got mixed up together because of the people around him. The only thing that will him back to norm is to find a person that loves him and understands him” that person should understand when he is sad or happy and always try to make him feel better” this make find love inside himself so that he returns to his normal. He starts to cry when he is sad and laugh when he is happy. All of this change just happened when he found a person who shares him love. So love is the strongest feeling a person could experience in all of his life. So imagine how a person could live without love!! In fact a person without love is not living and many do commit suicide just because he can’t find around him because everyone really loved him or cared around him just died. So my advice to you if you couldn’t find love around yourself try to at least love yourself because if you live without love you are dead.

Isolated

Sometimes I wish I could be the king of the kingdom of isolation and this kingdom has no one in it except me. Why do I wish that? I wish that because I feel that everyone around me needs something from me he doesn’t interact with me for my own self but instead he interacts with me for something he want. I wish to form this kingdom on another planet because there is no such place on earth. I wish I could disappear from the world and go to that place and I could see from above there every single one knows me and to see what him or her will do about my disappearance then I could start the people I will share with them my new home. And I will teach their decedents how to like and interact with other without anything so I will turn it from the kingdom of isolation into the kingdom of love. Then in one day I will my kingdom attack the whole planet earth then changing into a whole planet of love.

What Is Love?

Love is the most powerful emotion a human being can experience. The strange thing is, that almost nobody knows what love is. Why is it so difficult to find love? That is easy to understand, if you know that the word “love” is not the same as one’s feeling of love. The word love is used as an expression of affection towards someone else (I love you) but it also expresses pleasure (I love chocolate). To make it a little more complicated, the word “love” also expresses a human virtue that is based on compassion, affection and kindness. This is a state of being, that has nothing to do, with something or someone outside yourself. This is the purest form of Love.

The ancient Greek used 7 words to define the different states of love:

1️⃣Storge: natural affection, the love you share with your family.

2️⃣Philia: the love that you have for friends.
3️⃣Eros: sexual and erotic desire kind of love (positive or negative)
4️⃣Agape: this is the unconditional love, or divine love
5️⃣Ludus: this is playful love, like childish love or flirting.
6️⃣Pragma: long standing love. The love in a married couple.
7️⃣Philautia: the love of the self (negative or positive)

These are 7 different kind of feelings. The love you feel for your partner is not the same as the love you feel for your mother. Even the love for your partner changes in time. You feel different emotions for different situations and people.

But still, we use the same word. It is easy to understand that a confusion is easy made while communicating. I can say “I love you” to two different people (and mean it), but I am actually feeling in a different way.

What you feel is controlled by the right side of your brain and language is controlled by your left side. If you use the word “love” 10 times a day with different situations, it losses power. Your left part or your brain does not get fully activated when you really mean “I love you” and want to get exited about it. 50% of your brain is a lot.

Never use the word love instead use others words to show your emotions for example: I love chocolate, becomes: I enjoy chocolate. I love my job, becomes: I have passion for what I do.

If you don’t know how to find love with in you, you will never find it outside you.

So learning to love yourself will give you a push forward to love everyone around you and don’t think that you will not find love love maybe infront of your eyes but you can’t see or feel it. 

صدق او لا تصدق 

“ان الحياة الآخرة لهي ال حيوان”  إذن هذا يدل غلي انه لا يوجد حياة حقيقية غير الحياة الآخرة و هي الحياة الحقيقية. الحياة التي نعيشها قد نواجه فيها ما يسرنا و ما يحزننا لكنها مهما تكن في صدقها لن تكون مثل الحياة الآخرة التي قال عنها رب العزة و الجلال و الإكرام انه الحيوان و كلمة الحيوان هنا لا تعني حيوان حرفيا لكنها هي الجمع كلمة حياة.

الحياة هي مجرد تجارب نعيشها حتي يوم القيامة فلا تظن انك ستعيش في الحياة بدون تعب و كد وشقاء لكنك بالتأكيد أيضاً ستري الكثير من الأوقات الجميلة التي تجعلك تبتسم. وتذكر انه دائماً لكل هماً فرجاً برب العالمين و ليس بغيره.

الحياة الدنيا قد تجعل الشخص يعيش في هم و حزن و يشعر ان هذا الهم لن يقدر عليه أبداً لكن لو علم ان حياة اكبر كذبة قد يعيشها طوال عمره و لو تأكد من ذلك لكان ارتاح نفسياً و قال لنفسه إنما بعد العسر يسر و اكبر إثبات لذلك هو ان الانسان اول شيء يفعله في حياته هو البكاء فور ولادته.

إذا كنت تشعر ان الحياة صعبة يجب ان تتذكر ان كل شخص في هذا العالم يعيش في حزن و هم و قد يكون هناك من هم في هَم و حزن أكتر منك. 

How to be a Real Human Being?!

A human is a communicating animal as all scientists said. What does this mean? It means that the difference between an animal and a human being is that  human beings could communicate together this the meaning in a literal way. But these words of course has a wider and a deeper meaning I guess it is: “a human is a human being when he can express himself in all ways of communicating and uses his mind to think about and to understand everything around him or her” and this is  the meaning of the word “human” in philosophy so if he don’t have these meanings inside himself he shouldn’t be even called as a human. Because animals do communicate together.

A human being could express himself with one of two ways the first which is used much wider speaking and the second which is used a little bit fewer than the first is writing. In my opinion writing is much more deeper and stronger in communicating and delivering the idea. But not every one has the ability or the skill to use it in expressing himself. 

But the most important for a human to be a human is to think not just do as others do, to share his thoughts with others, see their opinions ,and learn from their experiences but actually all of this changed. People see thinkers as unsocial people and they are not even humans. But actually are the right humans because they think but they see that sharing their thoughts with people who will never understand so it is of no use. And most people are of this kind these days.

A real human being must be a thinker and thinkers don’t speak a lot they do more than they speak and that what makes them different from others and people start to consider them unsocial but actually they aren’t as they say instead they are are doing what makes them humans.